GoodBye Old Friend

I have mourned the end of a very special friendship recently, an ended that was pushed upon me I guess.

It has become painfully clear to me that an old friend of mine is ghosting me.  I have tried calling, texting, messaging on Facebook......the only thing I have not done is email her.  I guess our friendship has ended, and I didn't even know it.  I took a break from FB a while back, and disabled my account.  I get back on, and we're no longer friends on FB.  I reached out during the Pandemic, and let's face it she wasn't always great at getting back to me.  But now I think she has my calls blocked and my messages flagged not to bother her.  I feel almost like a stalker, I have even thought about reaching out to her adult child to see what's going on.  I mean, I would assume I would know if she passed away!?

I think it really hurts me more then I'd like to admit that she is doing this to me.  Maybe I am not a good friend to her, and I didn't realize and she finally got rid of me.  I just kind of wish I knew what I did.

In the end, I did email her asking her if she was okay.  And I guess I'll just let it go, though it does hurt.  I can't blame myself forever.  But I am a classic over thinker, and a classic self blamer.  I didn't do anything though, did I reach out a ton? no, but it was much more then her never reaching out.  So I did all I could.

Life moves on, with our without a dear friend - and so I am moving on.

Good bye old friend-I love and miss you!